Well I've been working hard at conditioning my emotional state. I've been doing most of it on the track and through my diet. As a result, I have lost over 6 lbs and am gaining energy rapidly!
Today I was going through a run down of the things in my life that I have felt like are holding me back. After making this two and a half page list, I went for a run on the track. As I was running I started getting more and more pissed off about the current state of my emotional life. Once I was in this emotional state of being fed up and pained by the shortcomings in my life, I ran as hard as I could yelling at life that today is my decision day! I refuse to let petty excuses guide my life for another minute. I made it very clear to the powers that be and to myself that I made a commitment today that will stand for the rest of my life, a commitment to lay down the excuses, the weak drive, the weak emotional states, the weak accountability, the weak mind (that's been letting others ideas direct it) and the fear of uncertainty.
Today I picked up my torch and vowed to be the man I know I am, and stand strong in him regardless of what others say, think, or do! To take charge of my life, like I know I can, like I know I have to!
So after my track run, I made a long list of the things I have been doing, letting happen, or letting control me. I titled the list " Things I Am Doing That Are Fucking Pissing Me Off!" This list helped me remember that I am highly motivated by anger, and if used properly this can be a great tool. I apologize for the language but I found it necessary for me to create the state I am now using to get me off my ass and more resistant to the people who try to penetrate my state with their random B.S. that will run my life down if I let it.
Anyways, just a quick rant about anger as a motivating tool.
